I didn’t reference Blink 182 for yesterday’s entry, so there’s that. What I’m going to do for today is revisit something I once wrote, and see what’s different today.
Life Review – 2/22/2000
Periodically, I do a full review of everything I do in life. Every little thing. I then rate those things on an evaluative scale: like, dislike, indifferent.
Examples would be like this…..
Like: Reading OD, messing around on the computer, being on the air
Dislike: Doing Dishes, thinking about my psycho ex girlfriend, watching Kathie Lee, doing my taxes
Indifferent: Brushing my teeth, paying bills.
I then try to cut out the things I don’t like, and don’t absolutely need to do. Normally, I can hit upon some things I’m doing that I don’t like, and are really holding me back in life. I haven’t been able to find anything certain in this round.
So why am I in such a funk?
Why do I feel like I’m having so little success?
Why can’t I, for the life of me, find a girlfriend?
Sorry for the bitching, but I’m a bit frustrated right now.
I was twenty when I wrote that.
I haven’t done much in the way of life reviews since about my thirtieth birthday. To paraphrase someone, the die is cast. (Yes, I know who it is….)
Likes: actually building things, spending time with my wife, eating good food, drinking good drinks, trying to follow football and baseball.
Dislikes: working to just stay above water, MS (and all its negative effects on me), the segment of the population for whom politics has replaced religion.
Indifferent: There’s too many to list, really. (And, no, that doesn’t mean I’m really depressed…just that I don’t really get excited or depressed about mundane things.)
Changes are happening in my life, whether I’m ready for them or not. I fully expect something by the time I finish up this round of writing (20 August). Whatever those changes entail, I’m good with.
Things are better than when I wrote this two years ago. Worse than last year, but I was getting frustrated with what I was doing.
I am getting back into things that I really do enjoy, though. Rediscovering that which made me me.