One of the things that’s bothered the hell out of me the last couple of days is this video that the tech giants kind of at the same time banned.
Almost as if talking points were being sent to my reflexively anti-Trump connections in the cesspool that is Facebook posted something about how one of the speakers is some sort of witch doctor.
As I suspected, there’s stories like this peppered across the Intertubes.
Okay, this woman maybe isn’t on the level. Understood. But she’s got a right to say crazy shit, and people have the right to repeat her crazy shit.
You do the fact-check after you see the incorrect information. You don’t go and remove the crazy shit to protect viewers.
That’s not your job. You don’t get legal protections against liability for the crazy shit people post.
You don’t act as if it never was said because you think it was wrong.
Should every corporate media post about the fucking Steele Dossier be forever banned because it’s now becoming very clear that it even the FBI thought it was bullshit?
It’s the corporate media outlet’s responsibility to fix things after it’s been discredited.
How would people feel if CloudFlare just decided that MSNBC publishes incorrect stuff?
I understand the loathsome Josh Hawley’s urge to repeal §230 of the Communications Decency Act.
I’m not saying I agree with that urge, but I understand it.
Freedom means having to face bad things from time to time.
And this is where I’d say that I’m a horrible person for being in favor of freedom of speech.
From the cobweb-laced archives, not long after I was diagnosed with MS…
07/29/2009 – 7/29/2009
Oh, and I forgot part of what I was going to write about the difference between now and then…..
I still feel numb in some ways, but think I appreciate emotion more than I did then. Perhaps some of it is melodrama, but I think sometimes that’s okay. I never would have said that ten years ago. I admired stoicism, then when I achieved it, I was utterly unsatisfied. How the fuck did I not cry when I left radio? I came really damn close, then it went away. I didn’t cry at either of my grandmothers’ funerals. I didn’t cry on 9/11. I didn’t cry over being dumped.
I was just there. Sighing. Smoking. Just existing.
It’s a lot different now, and while I still am not fully on the roller coaster, there are more ups and downs. I do credit the love of my life for some of it. I smile and laugh more now. I have cried. I look at kids with wonderment; while I’m still not sure that I want any of my own, I’m less opposed to it now. I try to remember the ups and downs of being a kid, and miss the pure joy kids experience. May never find it again, but maybe I can take part in someone else’s? Maybe my young future wife’s? Maybe our kids if we have them?
I had no idea what was going to happen, how bad things would get.
But I’m still the same. (And I’m not much of a fan of his, but that song is incredible. It doesn’t have a chorus!)
I saved the draft for this over the weekend while I was picking through archives to see if I could find something to write about.
Maybe I can elaborate a bit more after the entry, but I think saying that my approach about the issue really hasn’t changed that much.
Back then, I couldn’t say that I believed. With more information, I’ve made a decision, and that’s my choice. I’m not going to try to convince you one way or the other.
Mind Trigger – 7/28/2001
Listening to a replay of Art Bell, he asked the guest, “Do you believe in the God of the Bible?”
But it reminds me of the dream I had yesterday…..
I was sitting in a situation where I would have been expected to wholeheartedly believe and I didn’t. It was almost a classroom setting, and for some reason, I was required to believe. So the teacher/whatever asked me….
“Do you believe in God?”
And again, what am I supposed to say to that? Giving the typical wishy-washy answer that’d get me by in life wouldn’t work in that situation. I had to answer yes or no.
And I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t answer. I don’t know.
Or, maybe looking at this from another perspective….
Since I was in a situation where I was required to believe and I didn’t…..
Maybe I do know and I’m not being honest with myself totally.
I still don’t think it’s okay to force/require someone to declare either way.
If that makes me a bad person, regardless of what I believe (or don’t), so be it.
I’m willing to let you make your own decisions.
I’ve become, however, very opposed to what I’ve dubbed “Evangelical Agnosticism.”
If you hold that there’ll never be enough information for you to make a determination, that’s a problem with you. Your decision might change as you get new evidence; that’s fine.
I’m also okay with you saying that you don’t think you’ve got enough information to make a decision.
But saying that it’ll forever be impossible to make one — that’s a problem with you.
But you can’t say it’s impossible for you to make a determination one way or the other.
Do I believe that Jesus was a real person? Absolutely. Do I believe that he was executed by the Romans? Seems pretty likely. Do I believe that he rose from the dead three days later, and is the son of God? That’s where the matter of faith is. (And if you happen to be reading this, and really want to know, feed me beer, and find out in person.)
On to the news.
Today’s big story? Barr’s interrogation by the House.
The reporting started with an analysis of his opening statement yesterday.
I was listening some of the testimony while I was working. I think he, along with a lot of the folks’ whose opinions I value, have reached the same conclusion; this isn’t about police racism anymore, and the riots need to stop.
Again, it goes back to the fundamental reason government exists — to protect life, liberty, and property.
No question that property is being destroyed. And people are dying in the “largely peaceful” protests. And liberty is significantly affected if you life or work near the sites of these “largely peaceful” protests.
I think part of the reason they pulled Barr in was the deployment of Federal protection forces to address the protests on/around the Federal courthouses.
What I heard was pretty much as you’d expect; why are you Trump’s puppet?
(And time to delete something I probably shouldn’t say…)
I’m tired of it.
And, no, electing Biden isn’t going to fix it.
I saw something in one of the Facebook private groups that does with one of the podcasts I consume that said electing Biden to replace Trump is like shitting your pants, then changing your shirt.
But, hey, with a blue pilled Senate, things like the filibuster can go away, ensuring that more laws with no consent from the governed can be enacted.
The mullahs are probably on-par with the Norks when it comes to doing things that’ll irk the world. It’s a special talent, perhaps.
Completely unrelated. I need to figure out where to order some NFL preview magazines that’s not Amazon.
If anyone has some suggestions about a good place for that, pls2bsending email.
There was something else I was going to blab about, but I’ve forgotten what it was..
Pensive – 7/27/2003
So, I haven’t written much lately, and the short answer as to why is that I really have forgotten how to put it down in a meaningful fashion. It’s just one of those things. Time for inventory……
Well, to be perfectly honest, I’m a little pissed off about the radio station. They do nothing for me, and I work my ass off for them. My boss decided that a problem that had been festering for weeks had to be fixed on Saturday night, so I had to come in and fix it. It was something that could have, of course, waited until Monday, or Thursday, or Friday, but no….I had to come in and do it. Once I was there and into it, my attitude improved somewhat, but I was more than a bit upset about having to be at work on a night when I could have been doing other things (I will talk about this point more down in another section).
I also have this other thing that’s kicking. It’s going to take some money to get started — money I don’t have, of course, but money I will scrimp together somehow. I think we agreed that October 1 was the drop-dead date. So, I have five paychecks between now and then, and I’ll need to save 40% of each one. Yikes. I can and will do it. I might find something to hock, too. Maybe sell one of these computers I’m not using. But this looks like an exciting thing if we can get it off the ground. I certainly stand to make a hell of a lot more money. But considering my current circumstance, that won’t be difficult. If things work properly, I will probably be making three times my salary within the next eighteen months. I think I could learn to deal with that.
I’ve been feeling quite a bit better as of late. I guess maybe it was just a winter funk or something. I still can’t eat like I used to, but I’m able to get out of the house and actually do things. I’m actually feeling better than I was before I left on my trip in June. Because I’ve been feeling better, my confidence is up quite a bit from where it used to be. Not being able to eat has me getting thin again. I’ve lost about twenty pounds since I graduated last May, and about forty since my heaviest, which would have been around Christmas 2000. So, I’m kind of hovering between 185 and 190, which I’d like to try to maintain, perhaps lose a bit more. I still need to start working out again, but I know that’s going to be difficult working essentially two full-time jobs.
Relationship, or lack thereof:
In feeling better and more self-confident, I really wanted to go do something where I could meet some people last night. Of course, I was stuck at work, and couldn’t do that. I finished up my repair job at 2am, just as all the bars were closing, so I couldn’t go in and even grab a quick drink. I am lonely. I don’t see my friends very often. I don’t really have any prospects as far as a relationship goes, and the estrangement from my normal circle of friends does nothing to remedy that situation. True, they weren’t helping much, but they did lead me into situations where I met other people. It’s gotten especially bad since I left college. And of course, it’s just my personality. I leave people alone. I’m not one to strike up a conversation unless I have a damn good reason. Of course, this has its minuses, but it is one of the rules I follow. I could never be a Jehovah’s Witness. So, I’m stuck trying to figure out how to make contact and not disturb, you know? Really and truly, I think that anything that happens to me now or at any time in the future will have to be initated by the other person. I have other things that occupy my thoughts…..and I have to be distracted back into the whole dating thing. Always Mr. Sadie Hawkins. On a more disturbing note, the Bush Administration has this program they’re proposing to encourage unwed mothers to find husbands. While I think the idea is worthwhile, I don’t think it’s the government’s place to be doing that (well, I don’t think government assistance is proper, either, but that’s another story altogether). I also worry that it’s going to send the horde of single moms after me. sigh
So, that’s about the sum of things right now. And this is the longest entry I’ve written in a long time. But writing takes time, and I haven’t had much lately.
I sleep a lot better when I have the bed adjusted correctly. Still some up-and-down, but, for the most part, I actually slept pretty well last night in who knows how long.
The news, again, is about what’s going on in the Pacific Norhtwest.
Someone released a photo of this peaceful protester who’d been hit right in the middle of his forehead with a crowd control round. Probably won’t be any long-term damage from the shot, itself, but they were worried about brain trauma.
Maybe it’s the scarred brain of mine that made me reason — who’s to say that the brain on this one wasn’t traumatically-injured before the Feds shot him between the eyes with a rubber bullet.
So no link to a current news story this morning. What more is there to say, really?
When I sat down at the computer this morning, I had this open.
COVID’s gong to cover all the sins of the whole Russia thing. Ho-hum.
And there’s where my brain goes to the well-they’re-gonna-shoot-me-as-an-undesirable-anyway-so-I-hope-it’s-recorded. I care, but at the same time, I don’t, and this part of why I’m getting professional help. I have these urges to do things I know are dangerous, but I want to do them anyway.
It also kindasorta explains my urges just to go somewhere else. Seeing the video of the things with the hurricane hitting the Texas Gulf Coast yesterday, along with Joe Rogan saying he was ditching Cali for Texas, had me looking at things down there. Could I be happy there? Maybe. Could I live comfortably just on the income I expect to have? Yes. Do I want to live in Lake Jackson, a.k.a. Ron Paul Land?
I don’t think my wife would be at all interested.
On to picking through my past. Going to re-take a survey from 2000. The original author’s name has been removed. Obviously, no idea what happened to him, now, twenty years later.
If you could pick one book that was required reading for the entire world, what would it be and what age group would you have read it?
I think I said something like Atlas Shrugged in 2000. Today, however, I don’t have an answer. I really don’t like trying to compel people to take in things against their will.
If there was something for me that was required reading, I’d probably make it a point to not read it.
Have you ever invented anything?
I don’t know. There’s probably scripts I wrote a long time ago that are still in use some places; is that invention?
What is the first site you visit when you connect to world wide web (after checking your mail and Opendiary, of course)?
Heh. A real 2000 question right there. With everything on the phone these days, there’s really no turning it all off.
I’ve been told I should I should try doing that, but I don’t really want to.
What nicknames do you have that you often go by?
I don’t have one these days. I go by “hurdboy” on some social sites….Fark, Gab, etc..
What are your top 5 favorite songs from the Sound of Music, 1 being the favorite and 5 being the least?
I don’t know that I could name five today, so I can’t do this one.
Name one cool thing you can do with your genitalia.
This made me think of The Rifleman’s Creed.
Name one thing that you could be doing in your life right now that is more productive than filling out a stupid survey.
It’s Sunday morning. What the hell else could I be doing, really? I already restarted a thing on work equipment after seeing an alert when I first woke up today.
What is the greatest late charge fee you’ve ever had at Blockbuster?
My wife and I have discussed various “Randy Marsh Moments” probably more than most people.
What is the best Father’s Day gift you’ve ever given your dad?
We’re getting close to the ten-year mark since he’s been gone.
I think my brother and I went in together to get him Yankees’ tickets at the old Yankee Stadium. He and my mom went up, and ended up watching the game with his Army buddy, who wore his “Muck The Fets” t-shirt. (They were young Infantry officers together in the 2nd Armored Division just as Vietnam was coming to an end, and were friends until my dad died.)
If you were to ever open a restaurant that wasn’t a chain, what would you name it?
When I answered this back then, my answer was “Le Merde.” I think that should have been “Les Merde.”
I don’t speak French; maybe I should learn. But I think there’s other languages that might be more useful. My wife has been interested, lately, in German. Meinen Deutsch ist sehr schlecht, aber besser ist wann Ich bin zu viel getronken.
Half-drunk German from high school probably isn’t of much use, honestly.
French seems nearly useless.
German would be easy, but I don’t know that I’d have much use for it anymore.
Knowledge of both German and English does help you be able to almost read Dutch (or Flemish….Stupid Flanders.).
I am still fascinated by Portuguese. Again, however, I get put off by the usefulness of it; when am I going to go to Brazil?
If you could throw a dinner party and have one dead person and one person from today come to it and meet, who would you choose?
And we go back to Question #9. Maybe Governor Hoodor Blackface will have loosened things up enough so that I can go see him on the tenth anniversary of his death in December. Guess we’ll see.
Have you ever gone skinny-dipping (do not answer this question if you’re ugly because then you’ll just put gross images in people’s heads)?
I’m ugly, but I’ll answer anyway. Yes.
Do you remember the candy “Bonkers”?
In your opinion, who is the most underrated actress in Hollywood, and how would you like to have her positioned for the first time you fuck her?
I don’t really know. I watch so little these days.
What did you give up for Lent this year (if you’re one of those heathen pagans, do this as a hypothetical)?
With my seriously-lapsed Catholicism, I’ve not done that in I don’t know how long. Maybe I should try next year.
Taking that took a lot longer than I anticipated, but it’s gotten me a good part of the way through this week’s Run Your Mouth.
I was a day off in what I posted last night. Once again, good discussion with friends about various youthful exploits, and what’s happening in the tech world.
I am seeing others arriving at the same conclusions as I have about the theings you mustdo to be an IT practitioner in good-standing.
I’ve probably said here before, but it’s worth repetition — before my vision really started going, I was a shitty Minesweeper player. I did do marginally-well on the SAT when I was a kid, but that wasn’t the sort of tests you commonly see these days — multiple choice, but there’s an unknown nummber of correct responses. On Question One, there’s six answers provided, and only two of them are correct. If you only select one, you get the entire question wrong. If you select the correct two answers, but also select a third incorrect one, you miss the whole question.
With barely-functional eyes, and a brain that’s slightly affected by MS, it often just ends up as an exercise in frustration.
But I have to do those things if I want to keep working. Along with paying the certification agency’s protection racket fee.
Portland sounds absolutely insane at this point. I am paying attention, though not terribly closely. I heard Andy Ngo on a podcast or radio show. I started following on Twitter. Incredible.
I also saw something, last week maybe, where these “peaceful protesters” beat the living hell out of an East Asian guy because they thought he was Andy Ngo.
There was widespread outrage early this week that there were Federal officers just arresting people wearing no ID, and travelling in unmarked vehicles. Perhaps I shouldn’t be surprised that these are the same folks who spent two years talking about how the President worked with the Russians to be elected.
So what to do? I don’t know. Governments are established to protect individuals’ rights to life, liberty, and property.
Government is failing in Portland.
That’s the biggest thing I see. I am biased, and I admit that. Still, shit’s burning, and people are getting hurt.
How do you stop that, who does it, and when does it happen?
Playing around in Jitsi with friends, and remembered I’d seen this looking through my archives the last few days.
Nervous – 7/25/2002
Going to a gathering of geeks this evening and I’m quite nervous. I don’t normally do well at these types of thing…..
I think one of my friends is going, so that should help some, but I’m still antsy. Will give a full report later.
Went down to Hatteras last night austensibly to go fishing. Didn’t even make it all the way down there, actually. I turned around in Kitty Hawk…..I was bored, and decided that standing around on a beach, barefoot, with a 9′ graphite fishing pole in a lightening storm probably wasn’t a great idea…..
It’s almost amusing to see all these “icons” getting torn down years after their deaths. Was he a racist? Probably not nearly as much as Virginia-born Democrat Woodrow Wilson, but….
I asked on Twitter, and got a funny response:
Was he a slave-peddler? Nothing that I’ve seen really indicates that. Did both good and bad things pop up because this Italian guy did the bidding of the Spanish monarchy? Sure. Do I support the Spanish monarchy? No. Do I support eliminating every mention? No. It happened. Some people are happy about that.
You’re not going to hide it.
Some people in the past drew inspiration from what he did, and erected monuments to those things. Fine. Let them stand, and remove them when they don’t serve any purpose anymore.
Should the Wilson bridge have been renamed when it was widened? Yeah. Should it happen right now? I’m very conflicted.
Is “Redskins” offensive? Yeah, at some point it was. For me, someone born during the Carter Administration, when I hear it, I think of George Allen, and the “Over The Hill Gang,” Joe Gibbs, John Riggins, Mark Rypien, and the Posse. I don’t think of anything racist.
Hell, I’m young enough that when someone mentions “Earnest Byner,” I think of the 1991 Redskins, not “The Fumble.”
Somebody from Cleveland probably thinks differently.
I also, as a Saints’ fan, think of the Saints losing to the Redskins on Sunday Night Football to a Redskins Team that’d started the season 0-5, and led by Tony Banks after they’d released their starting quarterback (Jeff George) something like three games.
But FedEx and Nike are on my no-buy list..
On to digging through the past….
I want a beer – 7/24/2002
It’s 4:39 in the morning, I’m at work, and I want a beer.
Tfffftbt. I wanna go far, far away from here.
I get off at six, and don’t have to be back at work until 9 saturday night.
Hmmph…what to do what to do…
I’m not sure what was going on around this time. I’d graduated from college, and was still working in radio. My time off, still, wasn’t really fun nights to do things. I didn’t have a lot to do. It would have been hot outside, so maybe that was it.
Obviously, with my tenuous health, and the state of the economy, these sorts of things have been of great interest lately.
I’ve been dumping money into my 401(k). And what I wanted to write about just now I deleted, because I might not be allowed to disclose.
I will say that I’m not old enough to qualify for any of the “catch-up” provisions in tax law, so it’s kind of forcing me to do things on my own apart from the “normal” ways of doing things.
As if there’d be anything different in my life.
I have a chunk. I’m not sure how long I could ever hope to live on it. I think probably some sort of long-term disability is more likely, honestly. What I have now would be more than I was earning not terribly long ago.
Even before the MS diagnosis, I was probably only looking at a lifespan of 65 years. MS, when you take a look at the actuarial numbers, takes ten years off your life. So that puts me likely dying before I’m able to tap anything without significant penalties.
I did listen to something interesting a few weeks ago that really changed my way of thinking about “investments.” Putting money into stores of value is not trying to get growth; it’s just trying to keep the value from going away.
In other words, I’m not planning to get rich off Tesla stock. Maybe next week, that’ll have appreciated a lot more than an ounce of gold or silver; what will it be worth ten years from now?
The same can be said for other things like real estate. Even if a big crash happens, it’s not going to be worth zero.
I can’t say the same for the Flooz I bought in 1999.
I’m also interested in buying stock that’s not publicly-traded. If I put, say, $10K into an apartment management/ownership group, maybe it’s a smaller payout than it was when I bought it. Maybe not. Maybe the Federal Reserve will juice the currency so much that it’s worth a lot more.
Even if it goes bankrupt, I’d be an unsecured creditor, and would get something back during the liquidation.
This is rapidly turning into the free-write I promised.
But I’m going to stop, as the weather’s nasty, and I’m worried about the power going out.
The motivation to do this is waning quickly. I did write to my doctor when I decided to embark on this session.
I found in my archives an entry I’d written almost twenty years ago, where I beat myself up for being lazy.
Mind you, this was when I was working basically full-time largely overnight, along with taking something like seventeen hours in college. And I was beating myself up over it. I’d spend my two nights off per week largely out driving around, listening to the radio, smoking way too many cigarettes, and trying to figure out what I was going to write.
Yeah. That was lazy.
Notsomuch. But that’s where I was, mentally.
As far as this goes, I was going to go on with what I suggested yesterday, and just find a random news story, and write about that.
Today, instead, since this wheezing PC decided it was going to flake out while I was trying to find where I write, I flipped over to the TV input.
The station I’ve been watching lately was talking about this. Even the reactionary mayor was in full maybe-this-is-really-fucking-stupid mode.
Because it is.
Is it the stupidest thing I’ve seen proposed in the past few years? No. That it’s not says a lot about the pols who’ve been put in office lately. Yes, that extends to the current occupant of the Oval Office.
But the disappointment that they won’t be able to execute him for treason could be amusing if I could bring myself to be amused.
Instead, it’s just disgust.
If I keep talking about it, I might turn into what I’m calling one of my Fantasy Football teams this year. Since Redskins is no longer okay, I think there’s a nice ring to “Washington Wokescolds.” My fantasy teams is the DC Wokescolds, because using the proper city name was too long.
Do I plan to keep doing this? Yes. Why? Because I started it, and it gives me a reason to pick through my archives to see what I wrote once upon a time.
So, from this day in 2000, I found this.
See, I believe in big miracles – 7/21/2000
It’s an inside joke, and if you haven’t seen the Robert Tilton Spiritual Flatulence bootleg video, you wouldn’t understand. (I have a copy somewhere, if you’d like a copy, drop me a line. I might be able to oblige).
Anyway, I just thought I’d say that I miss Art Bell. Mike Siegel sucks hairy goat balls.
The reference is to something that was much shorter than the YouTube find here.
Obviously it was incredibly funny to a seventeen year-old boy.