{"id":1207,"date":"2017-11-19T17:40:43","date_gmt":"2017-11-19T17:40:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/control-h.org\/?p=268"},"modified":"2017-11-19T17:40:43","modified_gmt":"2017-11-19T17:40:43","slug":"19-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2017\/11\/19\/19-2\/","title":{"rendered":"19"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Resampling more, but here goes.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">NoJoMo Day 5 &#8211; 11\/5\/2012<\/p>\n<hr style=\"padding-left: 30px;\" \/>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Double duty again today, because I would like to say a little about each.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><b>1. Are you an extrovert or an introvert? Both? Do you wish you could have more of the other characteristic? <\/b><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">I&#8217;m terribly introverted. Have been since about puberty. Some of it is related to how physically unattractive I view myself as (fat kid syndrome). Some of it has to do with a low overall opinion of many others.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">At the same time, very few people understand what makes me tick. Fewer, still, agree with me. Whether that makes me disagreeable is up to you. If you don&#8217;t wish to keep my company, whatever. The reverse is also true.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">I don&#8217;t feel obligations to some people that I probably should. Especially those who don&#8217;t even attempt to understand what it is I&#8217;m going through. No, I can&#8217;t stand in one place for five minutes without wobbling. Yes, I used to be able to march in a straight line; I can&#8217;t anymore.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">There&#8217;s nothing that&#8217;s going to fix me. There&#8217;s not even really anything that&#8217;ll make life halfway normal. How the hell can you explain to someone who&#8217;s never experienced it what it&#8217;s like to have to remember to breathe? How do you explain to someone that there&#8217;s no glasses that&#8217;ll make your eyes work better?<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">This is just not stuff most people can comprehend. But it&#8217;s reality for me.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><b>2. If your younger self could time travel and meet the you of today, what would they think of you? What would you tell your younger self?<\/b><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">See the answer to question number one, but&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">You&#8217;re a jerk. A complete <span style=\"text-decoration: line-through;\">asshole<\/span>kneebiter. Use that to get them to figure out what the hell is wrong with you when you&#8217;re 22 instead of 30.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Maybe you&#8217;re being self-destructive right now; don&#8217;t worry so much about it. Have a little fun, asshole. You&#8217;re too old for your age. Enjoy being what you are; you&#8217;ve only got one chance at it.&lt;\/p<\/p>\n<p><i>Are you an extrovert or an introvert? Both? Do you wish you could have more of the other characteristic?<\/i><br \/>\nStill very introverted. \u00a0Who wants to speak to an ugly guy with a cane, anyway?<br \/>\nI do stand up for myself more than I would have when I was younger, though. \u00a0In a work situation, I can concentrate more on quality. \u00a0If something is being done incorrectly, I&#8217;m going to say something about it.<br \/>\n<i>If your younger self could time travel and meet the you of today, what would they think of you? What would you tell your younger self?<\/i><br \/>\nI don&#8217;t know. \u00a0I probably would tell myself to <strike>rent from the bank<\/strike>buy a house I couldn&#8217;t afford at the peak of the first housing bubble.  I certainly wouldn&#8217;t have paid more in Federal Income Tax in 2009 than I grossed in 2003.  Pay close attention to what I said, there.  No, I&#8217;m not talking about &#8220;payroll taxes.&#8221;  <u>Income Tax<\/u>.<br \/>\nTomorrow, I&#8217;ll detail my Thanksgiving plans.  On Friday, I&#8217;ll detail how things went.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Resampling more, but here goes. NoJoMo Day 5 &#8211; 11\/5\/2012 Double duty again today, because I would like to say a little about each. 1. Are you an extrovert or an introvert? Both? Do you wish you could have more of the other characteristic? I&#8217;m terribly introverted. Have been since about puberty. 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