{"id":1769,"date":"2019-11-15T19:24:27","date_gmt":"2019-11-16T00:24:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/control-h.org\/wordpress\/?p=1769"},"modified":"2019-11-15T19:24:27","modified_gmt":"2019-11-16T00:24:27","slug":"fifteen-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2019\/11\/15\/fifteen-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Fifteen"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Halftime free-write<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n

I didn’t really plan this well considering I had a free write just a couple of days ago.<\/p>\n\n\n

Whatever. I will get through this, because it helps me keep thoughts straight, and I’m halfway finished.<\/p>\n\n\n

In the background, I’m listening to the Attorney General’s speech. Right in some ways, wrong in lots of others. And I should be killed because I don’t choose one side or the other. *shrug*<\/p>\n\n\n

I. Don’t Care. <\/p>\n\n\n

That sentiment, of course, is the biggest bit of my “problem” right now.<\/p>\n\n\n

There’s lots of places where I could go with my life, but I don’t really care.<\/p>\n\n\n

Whatever<\/a>.<\/p>\n\n\n

18:05 < kcrow> the world womders\n18:10 <@sean> we are the world<\/pre>\n\n\n
That ought to explain how much attention I’m paying.<\/p>\n\n\n
*wanders away to order dinner*<\/p>\n\n\n
Anyway, back to the point, I do lots of things just because I’ve committed to doing them.  I’ve foregone all sorts of things the past few years.  I do listen to Adam Corolla<\/a>.  He often speaks about the benefits, for a boy, in learning to delay gratification.<\/p>\n\n\n
He speaks of how boys end up with great affection, admiration, for adult men who put them through hell<\/em>.  That football coach who made you run until you puked.  That drill sergeant who did the same.<\/p>\n\n\n
And this, again, is going nowhere.  Maybe.  So, one of the unused prompts.<\/p>\n\n\n
 Are you afraid to confront your demons? <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n
Nope.  A lot of what I’m doing with my mental health bits speaks to, again, resisting those urges<\/span>.  They don’t work anymore, anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n
I’m going to stop now, as I really don’t think this is going anywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n
Halfway through.  Keep pressing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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