{"id":1804,"date":"2019-11-29T11:52:57","date_gmt":"2019-11-29T16:52:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/control-h.org\/wordpress\/?p=1804"},"modified":"2019-11-29T11:52:57","modified_gmt":"2019-11-29T16:52:57","slug":"twenty-nine-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2019\/11\/29\/twenty-nine-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Twenty-nine"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><em>Shopping\/Free-write<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;ve not done much shopping, as as I write this, I&#8217;m on a train headed back to Alexandrai.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s so strange how I can now talk myself out of just about anything that I might have wanted for a moment.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>Even momentary urgest to maintain are fleeting.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I could fire everyone right now.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>What does that say about me?<\/p>\n\n\n<p>Yes, I&#8217;m going to do that some, at least.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I need to find a new dentist, PCP, and dermatologist.  I&#8217;d be working on that <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">right now,<\/span> if I wasn&#8217;t on the quiet car.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I would say that I&#8217;m very dissatisfied with many things in my life, but that&#8217;s not true.  I&#8217;m just so ambivalent towards pretty much everything that I don&#8217;t do anything.  <\/p>\n\n\n<p>I guess the question ought to be whether dissatisfaction might be preferable.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I just don&#8217;t know.  And I&#8217;m not interested enough to find out.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>Tomorrow is the final day of this.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m not sure what I should think or feel.  Ten straight Novembers.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>I think I should feel some sort of accomplishment to say that.<\/p>\n\n\n<p>But I don&#8217;t.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Shopping\/Free-write I&#8217;ve not done much shopping, as as I write this, I&#8217;m on a train headed back to Alexandrai. It&#8217;s so strange how I can now talk myself out of just about anything that I might have wanted for a moment. Even momentary urgest to maintain are fleeting. I could fire everyone right now. What [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[26],"class_list":["post-1804","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-national-journal-writers-month","tag-nojomo"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1804","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1804"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1804\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1804"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1804"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1804"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}