Reply to a note left for me on my last entry:<\/p>\n\n\n
No, it was me going home for Thanksgiving. I really kind of was having a breakdown when I wrote twenty-nine. But I\u2019ve kind of been cloistering at home the past couple of weeks, trying to get my head back together.<\/p>\n\n\n
I think it worked, but I am very much in need of my next Tysabri infusion. Tuesday can\u2019t get here soon enough. Ugh.<\/p>\n\n\n
I did the trip, and ended up on the train thinking my psychologist didn\u2019t want to see me anymore, and I should blow up just about everything in my life.<\/p>\n\n\n
So I emailed her.<\/p>\n\n\n
For whatever reason, I convinced myself she was trying to get rid of me as a patient.<\/p>\n\n\n
No, really.<\/p>\n\n\n
We discussed it, and it might come down to my life as a kid. Things suck? Okay, just hang on for a few more months, and you\u2019ll be able to start anew, somewhere else.<\/p>\n\n\n
That also might speak to my longtime urge to always build from scratch, and nothing is, or maybe, nothing should ever be permanent.<\/p>\n\n\n
I think that the resistance to that might be rooted in the desire to improve on something previously good. Or perfect.<\/p>\n\n\n
Speaks to my admiration of certain sports figures. Will anyone ever match Brett Favre\u2019s interception record? Would anyone ever be allowed to play long enough to break it?<\/p>\n\n\n
And that speaks to my subtitle \u2014 Everything Gets Deleted, Eventually.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Reply to a note left for me on my last entry: No, it was me going home for Thanksgiving. I really kind of was having a breakdown when I wrote twenty-nine. But I\u2019ve kind of been cloistering at home the past couple of weeks, trying to get my head back together. I think it worked, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1878","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-scarred-brain-murmurings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1878","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1878"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1878\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1878"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1878"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1878"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}