{"id":1980,"date":"2018-08-05T15:39:06","date_gmt":"2018-08-05T19:39:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/control-h.org\/blog\/wordpress\/?p=1098"},"modified":"2018-08-05T15:39:06","modified_gmt":"2018-08-05T19:39:06","slug":"seventeen-8-5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2018\/08\/05\/seventeen-8-5\/","title":{"rendered":"Seventeen (8\/5)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>After writing yesterday&#8217;s bit, I realized that I hadn&#8217;t been reviewing my first summer of writing, in 2015.<br \/>\nMy thoughts went there as I was thinking about why I&#8221;m doing this, and why I&#8217;m not getting the same sort of satisfaction from it as I did back then.<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve spent this weekend working.\u00a0 Something north of ten hours yesterday, and about half that today.\u00a0 Thanks to that, I may be finished roughly midday Thursday, which is more than okay, considering I have an infusion Thursday afternoon.\u00a0 (And that is interesting, normally by this point, I&#8217;m absolutely exhausted.\u00a0 I mean, I am, but I do feel a lot better than I would have the last few years&#8230;.)<br \/>\nSo, taking it back to 2015,<br \/>\n&nbsp;<br \/>\n<strong><em>Write about your relationship status. How long has it been? Is it still good? If so, why?<\/em><\/strong><br \/>\n<em>I\u2019ve been together with my wife for over nine years now.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>We just work. And it really never feels like work. She\u2019s the only person I\u2019ve ever been with, where the experience is essentially effortless.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>It\u2019s a big freaky that I\u2019ve been wiht her almost a third of her life, now, but\u2026<\/em><br \/>\n<em>At the same time, part of me asks, \u201cwhy analyze this?\u201d We love each other, are each other\u2019s best friends, etc.. What\u2019s to explain?<\/em><br \/>\n<em>I do miss her every day I\u2019m away for this shitty job, though.<\/em><br \/>\n<em>That\u2019s been as, if not more difficult than my medical maladies.<\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>I feel better when I sleep in my own bed, next to her.<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em>There\u2019s really not a lot more to say about it than that.<\/em><br \/>\nThree years after writing that, I sleep next to her every night, and that&#8217;s a good thing.<br \/>\nYes, we&#8217;re somewhere else.\u00a0 Yes, we&#8217;re not on our own.<br \/>\nBut we will be soon enough.<br \/>\nLast night, since we&#8217;ve got run of where we&#8217;re staying, after I finished working, we ended up just sitting and talking.<br \/>\nHow many people can say that they can do that, really?\u00a0 We do fit with each other, so it goes.\u00a0 And I hope it does until I die.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t want anybody else, and I can&#8217;t imagine being as comfortable with someone else.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>After writing yesterday&#8217;s bit, I realized that I hadn&#8217;t been reviewing my first summer of writing, in 2015. My thoughts went there as I was thinking about why I&#8221;m doing this, and why I&#8217;m not getting the same sort of satisfaction from it as I did back then. I&#8217;ve spent this weekend working.\u00a0 Something north [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[16],"class_list":["post-1980","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-summer-writing","tag-hot-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1980","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1980"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1980\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1980"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1980"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1980"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}