{"id":281,"date":"2012-11-04T00:48:58","date_gmt":"2012-11-04T05:48:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/control-h.org\/~sean\/wordpress\/?p=281"},"modified":"2012-11-04T00:48:58","modified_gmt":"2012-11-04T05:48:58","slug":"day-four","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2012\/11\/04\/day-four\/","title":{"rendered":"Day Four"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Since I don&#8217;t have a tome for either, I&#8217;ll try to address both writing prompts.  Instead of an extra hour of sleep, I&#8217;ll attempt an extra few minutes of writing.<\/p>\n<p><b>1. What do you desire most in your life? What is holding you back from obtaining or achieving your heart&#8217;s desire?<\/b><\/p>\n<p>At this point, normalcy.  It&#8217;s very absent for anyone with somewhat fragile health.  I have my soulmate.  I had professional potential (though I have my doubts about it since my vision started going).  The routines in life, however, are gone &#8212; possibly forever.  I can&#8217;t know on a day-to-day basis how I&#8217;m going to feel, whether I&#8217;ll be up to whatever I have planned.  <\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s put a strain on many other relationships I had.  My wife is understanding;  she sees what&#8217;s going on.  Others don&#8217;t.  But I don&#8217;t look sick!  Yeah, and you don&#8217;t look stupid;  looks can be deceiving.  <\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t feel comfortable around other family members for other reasons, too.  There&#8217;s been a lot of bereavement in the past few years.  Nothing, other than this little apartment with my wife, feels like &#8220;home.&#8221;  When we stayed with my mom last year during Irene, it just felt strange.  Visiting my grandfather and uncle after my dad died felt strange.  <\/p>\n<p>Thanksgiving with her parents will be a bit more comfortable (I am starting to feel a bit more at home at her parents&#8217; place&#8230;..it has taken six years, but&#8230;.), but I&#8217;ll be worried about what my mom is doing.<\/p>\n<p><b>2. What is your strangest tic or habit? For example feeling compelled to sniff your food before eating it or always counting steps when you go up or down stairs.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Uhhh&#8230;..<b>I have MS<\/b>.  I have lots of &#8220;strange&#8221; things.  Some of them aren&#8217;t terribly noticable if you&#8217;re not paying attention.  My left foot doesn&#8217;t point straight ahead.  My gait is weird.  I can&#8217;t run at all.  My eyes do weird dances.  Restless Leg Syndrome?  Uh, no.  But I do have similar twitches.  <\/p>\n<p>I also have &#8220;angry hands.&#8221;  I do do this thing where I interlace my fingers when I&#8217;m frustrated with something.<\/p>\n<hr>\n<p>*yawn*<br \/>\nYeah, time to post up, and try to sleep.  Aint&#8217;s aren&#8217;t until Monday night.  But watching Eli Manning beat the Falcons will suffice.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Since I don&#8217;t have a tome for either, I&#8217;ll try to address both writing prompts. Instead of an extra hour of sleep, I&#8217;ll attempt an extra few minutes of writing. 1. What do you desire most in your life? What is holding you back from obtaining or achieving your heart&#8217;s desire? At this point, normalcy. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36],"class_list":["post-281","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=281"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=281"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=281"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=281"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}