{"id":3417,"date":"2021-02-28T11:52:46","date_gmt":"2021-02-28T16:52:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/?p=3417"},"modified":"2021-02-28T11:52:46","modified_gmt":"2021-02-28T16:52:46","slug":"behind-on-sunday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2021\/02\/28\/behind-on-sunday\/","title":{"rendered":"Behind on Sunday"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>That&#8217;s not a good place to start the week, but that&#8217;s where I am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My sense of dread for last week was sort of founded, but I did get through it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The exercise goal was tough for a single day, mainly just because i forgot to do it in amidst the busy work obligations.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I did end up writing leet skriptz to do some things that are happening this week.  We&#8217;ll see how well things work starting tomorrow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So.  What&#8217;s on tap for this week?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Well, I have a telehealth appointment early Monday morning, and a dental cleaning Wednesday after work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Otherwise, it&#8217;s just a normal March week.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>March often seems to me like the <em>longest<\/em> month.  I can remember absolutely hating it when I was in school.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Thirty-one days.  No holidays.  Just an endless drone of school.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Since I&#8217;ve been older, it&#8217;s been better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Obviously, there&#8217;s jubilation about St. Patrick&#8217;s Day.  (Which I still maintain that if you&#8217;re going to go out, you should go to a Mexican joint&#8230;then go to the Irish joint on Cinco de Mayo&#8230;.)  Lent, too, which I really didn&#8217;t appreciate when I was younger.  More below in the TOTW \u00a7 below.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There is something about being in a routine to get your head straight.  Maybe there&#8217;s no direct benefit, but these ritualized things that prepare you for whatever you&#8217;re doing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m having flashbacks to Two-A-Days playing high school football.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Twice-daily practices in the hottest part of summer are awful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You&#8217;re sore.  You&#8217;re more exhausted than you&#8217;ve ever been. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But there&#8217;s something good that comes from all of it.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When you&#8217;re playing football, you&#8217;re in shape, and you know the playbook.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When you&#8217;re preparing for Easter, you&#8217;re setting your heart and mind for the teachings, and the things that faith informs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But, with that, there&#8217;s things that I don&#8217;t know, and will never know.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And I can&#8217;t get to the place where I&#8217;ll ever get behind the concept that ritualistic preparation is <strong>the answer<\/strong> for salvation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Or health.  Look at the COVID prescriptions.  You&#8217;ve got the prescriptions from <a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/www.theatlantic.com\/ideas\/archive\/2020\/07\/eight-steps-reopen-schools\/613939\/\" target=\"_blank\">The Elect<\/a> who then, themselves, <a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/abc7chicago.com\/illinois-covid-cases-chicago-arne-duncan\/8025259\/\" target=\"_blank\">catch the virus<\/a>. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Things change.  If I was coaching football, I wouldn&#8217;t have folks running <a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Oklahoma_drill\" target=\"_blank\">Oklahoma Drills<\/a>, but&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On to the TOTW, because my focus is kind of off.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>Theme of the week thing&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Theme of the Week 87 \u2013 <em>What are some things you do simply because that is the path that is set out for you? 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Others didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Some of them brought me joy, others were just kind of going through the routine for the sake of going through the routine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The problem I find myself in now, however, is that few things I do actually bring me any joy these days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And that&#8217;s part of the reason I&#8217;m seeing a psychologist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Will I ever enjoy the &#8220;value&#8221; doing these things might bring to my life?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I don&#8217;t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What I do know is that my failure to do them would result in more displeasure than whatever joy I might find from just choosing not to do them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Okay.  I did that.  Now what?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Oddly, part of the podcast I&#8217;m listening to right now is talking about the <a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Ark_of_the_Covenant\" target=\"_blank\">Ark of the Covalent<\/a>.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There&#8217;s just things that you do.  Maybe there&#8217;s no benefits that are tangible right now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Maybe it&#8217;s just a part of human nature.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>That&#8217;s not a good place to start the week, but that&#8217;s where I am. My sense of dread for last week was sort of founded, but I did get through it. The exercise goal was tough for a single day, mainly just because i forgot to do it in amidst the busy work obligations. 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