Making some progress today. Had an appointment with some of my medical team this morning; they’re very happy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am I? I don’t know. All of this is different for me. I lived for so long in a tough situation that I really have trouble appreciating what progress I’ve made.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I decided to look at what I’d written twenty years ago today. It was a review of a book I’d read…..and I have no idea what book it was. How sad is that?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bad read<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Read a promotional book sent to the station last night while I waited on Debian to finish downloading (building a small server to act as an Appletalk to windoze gateway)\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Basically this was a book that tried to be different than most \u201cHow to pickup chicks\u201d manuals. It was interesting, but only in its superficiality. Everything a man is \u201csupposed to do\u201d to pickup chicks seemed fake to me \u2014 impossible to do. If someone expresses an irrational feeling, *why* should I validate it? If it\u2019s something petty, I\u2019ll just keep my mouth shut and let it slide. If it\u2019s something totally foolish or idiotic, that *needs* to be said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In essence, though, the book teaches men self-denial. Denial of desire, denial of self-worth, and denial of reality. Admittedly, I\u2019m not one to share what I think of a member of the opposite sex readily to others. In fact, I\u2019m often dismissive about those I\u2019m attracted to. It\u2019s nobody\u2019s business but my own, really (okay, so maybe it\u2019s her business, too). But establishing a friendship with a woman in order to eventually to get sex from her or her friends seems like false pretenses to me; even if this sure-fire method makes *them* the initators.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tom Leykis has his Leykis 101 series. That is unabashedly about getting more tail for less money. But he doesn\u2019t take the step of playing a phony and leading women on into being friends. He says, take \u2019em out, don\u2019t act overly interested, don\u2019t spend more than forty bucks for a date, let them know that they\u2019re not the only game in town, and if you ain\u2019t gotten any by the third date, you don\u2019t see her again. None of this petty mindgames bullshit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ho-hum. I don\u2019t necessarily subscribe to Leykis\u2019s techniques, mainly because I don\u2019t view sex as a casual matter (damn objectivist thinking comes into play\u2026). But the brutal simplicity of it makes it respectable. And you don\u2019t have to lie in the process.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I really wonder what the book was, and whether my take on it would have changed very much.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At first, I thought it might be something related to some philosophy class I had, but it was after I graduated, so can’t be….<\/p>\n\n\n\n