{"id":4023,"date":"2022-11-18T08:53:05","date_gmt":"2022-11-18T13:53:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/?p=4023"},"modified":"2022-11-18T08:53:05","modified_gmt":"2022-11-18T13:53:05","slug":"eighteen-13","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/2022\/11\/18\/eighteen-13\/","title":{"rendered":"Eighteen"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Callback to prompts from 11\/18\/2012<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

(And I didn’t paste in what I was planning on writing to, but I dug up the entry from that day….)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1. Are you a risk-taker?Do you weigh the pros and cons or jump right in?<\/strong>
Short answers: \u201cNo. Depends.\u201d Longer answers: \u201cI\u2019m actually pretty risk-averse when you get right down to it. Living with my physical limitations kind of demands that. Have I done things that might get me hurt, fired, arrested? Sure. Are there a lot that come immediately to mind? No.\u201d
Those said, considering what you see on TV this time of year, the Internets all year long, etc., I marvel at the paranoia I see. People don\u2019t understand probabilities at all, jump to conclusions. With medical issues, it gets worse. Next on\u00a0The Doctors, \u201cIs my hangnail due to the chicken I ate in 1987?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

This one is actually pretty interesting a decade later.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My risks are kind of minimized due to the negative experiences I’ve had, but, really on many things, I just don’t give a shit, anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And this is one of the reasons I’m getting mental health care.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yes, I know that doing something is risky. In too many cases, I just don’t care.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’ve done the work to get me, and my wife, into position that if something goes awry, it’s really not a big deal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe teetering so close to oblivion previously affected that, but I think I’ve learned from mistakes, and won’t make the same choices again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The lack of worry about colossal failure really has ignited odd desires to do things that aren’t terribly dangerous, but are risky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Can I eat that raw oyster?<\/em> Is it okay that I don’t put on a seatbelt in the backseat of this taxi?<\/em> Can I just go and take a trip to..? <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

So that’s there, mentally, but at the same time, I don’t derive any real pleasure from doing the risky thing. Nothing is thrilling. Few things are really even satisfying at this point.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I guess most people would be bummed out about that, but I really just can’t muster the depression about it. To use a phrase that particularly irks a close relative, “it is what it is.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And getting upset about that accomplishes absolutely nothing, so why bother?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Callback to prompts from 11\/18\/2012 (And I didn’t paste in what I was planning on writing to, but I dug up the entry from that day….) 1. Are you a risk-taker?Do you weigh the pros and cons or jump right in?Short answers: \u201cNo. Depends.\u201d Longer answers: \u201cI\u2019m actually pretty risk-averse when you get right down […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4023","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-national-journal-writers-month"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4023","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4023"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4023\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4023"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4023"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4023"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}