Writing late in the afternoon. Didn’t sleep well last night for a variety of reasons. The title is kind of a concentration of some of the suppositions about me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No, you’re not correct about me, but I’m exhausted trying to disabuse you of your assumptions. It’s exhausting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I did finally get the problem with the disability payments straightened out Friday. Though I won’t get cost of living adjustments on the private supplement, I will get them on the Social Security Disability benefit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The SSDI payment, comes from a different fund than the soon-to-be-cut regular Social Security Income fund. The Boomers’ mismanagement of the retirement fund isn’t going to negatively-affect my benefits. For now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hmmm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Initial line of self-degradation deleted; maybe the psychological therapy treatments are working.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The study is going well. I have no idea if I’m getting a medication or placebo. The discomfort I was experiencing the first few weeks seems to have disappeared; not sure I can really attribute it to the drug (or placebo), as it kicked off before I started taking the pills.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The physical therapist is very pleased with my progress. I am moving better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, prompt….<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When have I listened to my gut and it was right?<\/em> I really don’t know. I made so many bad decisions since my layoff in 2013. Not trusting my gut on the salary on the first gig following was really a mistake. Could I have waited for something better? Maybe. But I didn’t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The ensuing hard times led us to where we are now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n *resigned shrugs*<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Could I have stopped working sooner than I did? Sure. But I thought I could help, and I wanted to see the changes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But my body didn’t let me do that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So, what’s left?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Writing late in the afternoon. Didn’t sleep well last night for a variety of reasons. The title is kind of a concentration of some of the suppositions about me. No, you’re not correct about me, but I’m exhausted trying to disabuse you of your assumptions. It’s exhausting. I did finally get the problem with the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6407","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-scarred-brain-murmurings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6407","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6407"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6407\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6416,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6407\/revisions\/6416"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6407"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6407"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/control-h.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6407"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
What helped me trust it in that moment?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n