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Working Off An Old Script

I started writing this probably when I learned my work fate. The title in the unsaved script was “Sanguine.”


That quite the correct word for how I’m feeling after what happened to me yesterday.

So this is going to happen, and I’m not terribly worried about it. The optimism implied by “sanguine” isn’t really there. It’s a change, and I’m okay with it. I’ve done what I can do, and the change needs to happen.

Despite arguments otherwise, nobody can actually control the weather.

I’m very much comfortable with the idea that I’ve done the right thing, and things will turn out okay.


So, I spit that out in April of 2025. It’s taken an awful long time for it to all be resolved.

But, finally, Thursday night it was.

How does that make you feel?

Spent. But ready to see what else the rest of the year has in store. I do still need to figure out some money stuff, but my original assumption about what I was going to have to deal with is pretty much true. It’s actually better than I thought it’d be just a few months ago. I will get COLA increases, but they’re only on the portion I have to get from Social Security. So, fixed chunk of insurance money each month, then the increasing Social Security disability payment. I get Medicare some time in 2028, but it’s really irrelevant as all my MS care is being covered through my participation in the clinical study.

After that, Medicare would be a supplement to whatever insurance comes from my wife’s job.

Things get better.

I’m not sure that the feeling could be described as optimistic. That’s not quite right, but I can’t think of a better word.

What else to do?

  • Figure out TV and Intertubes. The complex where we live is basically giving up on its old copper wire connectivity. My building has something like 25 separate apartments. Okay, the copper was probably sufficient when it was installed in 1999, And the wires inside the units, themselves, aren’t in great shape. When we moved in, there was always weirdness with the TV in the front room. We didn’t really want the cable modem out there, so that got moved into the bedroom we use as an office, but the TV out front still didn’t work. The Comcast Xfinity guy came out, tested the signal, and couldn’t figure out what was going on. Until he pulled off the wallplate, and found that the cable inside the wall was basically severed. Call the community’s maintenance department to get it fixed; that’ll be four weeks. Screw it. We’ll just use a WIFI device. So many people, myself included, missed what was happening technologically with wireless networking. Bubuhbut they’re keeping me from getting Netflix on my parents’ cell plan!!1! HOW DARE the evil guy tear up Net Neutrality? So, the community is going to have shared WIFI all of the residents. To use it, you’ll have to pay $50/mo., but that’ll be rolled into new leases. And the next time the walljack quits working, oh well. Use WIFI. Your TV service is delivered over the Internet, anyway. (Random aside…. Totes-didn’t-do-evil-Co’s browser now marks WiFi as a misspelling if I don’t capitalize the whole thing….)
  • Speaking of TV, that’s been the other things I’ve been trying to figure out. I’ve been an AT&T Wireless customer since I had to switch to buy an iPhone 3G. My mother’s house has AT&T fiber. Yes, there is a CATV provider, but I’d have to pay to have a line run from the box on the street. And AT&T bought DirecTV. The streaming product is so so much better then it was when I tried to get it for our last apartment in Norfolk. I bought service for my mom’s house, and am satisfied with the quality. I also might use it to watch Saints games during football season. The folks in the house barely use it, and I’d planned on cutting it off when the promo pricing expires next spring. Ehh…fuck it. They’ve got an app now for our Smart TV. Maybe we’ll just go with that for home, and update the service location so we get DC channels instead of Biloxi. Except that the app doesn’t work on the TV after it’d finally been released. Comcast Xfinity would allow me to consolidate everything into one bill, too. Though it comes close on the offerings, Hulu doesn’t completely cover everything. YouTube is the same deal. So. Discussion to be had. Leaning towards going with Xfinity Stream, then adding on an AT&T hotspot to serve as backup to what I anticipate will be subpar community WIFI. *cringe of discomfort typing that in all caps*
  • Fantasy football. I joined a Yahoo regular league. I almost feel like I ought to let it do an auto-pick draft; maybe I’ll do that for the other leagues I join. Need to figure out a Pro pick ’em league. Also wondering about College. But it’s happening. The Saints looked good last night. The For(mer)skins not so much.

I’m fading already, and need to make some phone calls. So, prompt…

Write a letter to your younger self.
What do they need to hear from you right now?

Dear Sean, stop being so cautious. You will screw up. Stop trying to be perfect. You’re going to miss out on things because you’re worried about being embarrassed. Your time to do fun, interesting, things is incredibly short. Eat the oyster. Maybe don’t just say no to drugs.

Alright. Until next time…

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Doing The Research

Getting various pushes to participate in one of the boycotts tomorrow.

The “meh” response became even more emphatic after reviewing the organizing group’s website.

They list six core principles, all of which are “positive rights.”

Anything that requires another’s effort is not a right. If I’m being forced to provide those things, I am your slave.

I won’t be participating. If you are, you should read up on some of their really coercive means of accomplishing those goals.

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ShmooCon Day 2 Part 2

Bring-It-On. This. Analysis of logs to see what happens when security researchers hit known bad hosts.

They seem to be looking at clients accessing known C2 hosts, then looking to see if they can access those clients. I’m trying to be shocked that these, largely, are coming from places like Iran and China.

Curiosity made me look at IPv6 adoption in Iran. Hmm. Interesting. While I really do think that there should not be government efforts to block traffic, I wholeheartedly support individuals/companies blocking traffic to/from that part of the Intertubes.


Next up is this on deception operations. Interesting, but really not a lot that I have any insight into.


Was kind of in and out on this; mislaid something and was looking for it. Anyway, I understand what they were trying to do and assume abandoned domains. It’s good information to have, but I’m not exactly sure what he’s really trying to do. Okay, it’s abandoned. If you’re worried about things like a dominate, there’s always something you can do with a wildcard, then narrow down from the bucket once you see something you want.


Did see all of this one. I understand, and sympathize with, her motivations and concerns. Yes, you should be able to make it harder to get your personal information. Yes, it should be protected by whomever collects it.

If CFPB is the answer, you asked the wrong question. There are very few things government does well; protecting consumers isn’t one of them. Hell, if you look at what’s going on in LA this week, you could easily extend that to delivering water, and providing fire protection, How about that TSA?


This one is interesting when it comes to things like cheap network cameras. Ubiquity for the hardware is a problem with so many of them sending foreign places, but I think probably a lot of it can be solved by just paying attention to what you purchase. I’m just wondering if you don’t need to do better with blocking outbound traffic. They talk about measures put into the firmwares that are there to circumvent protections, but I have to admit my skepticism. If you have a halfway-decent Layer-3 device, you can shut down traffic. If it’s this type of traffic coming from this device, it’s blocked.


As someone who is plugging through all of the Beavis & Butthead , “Silent Push” sounds flatulent.

But this is about FUNNULL, something I’ve never heard about.

Interesting that this is all because of gambling run offshore. These work for money laundering.

People like to gamble. People like to drink, smoke, do other drugs. It’s almost as if these are innately human behaviors.


And the last one. I’m thinking it’s stuff where I’ve completely lost the bubble. Intersting things at the site.

It’s absolutely interesting, but I really don’t have the stuff, or th time.

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Shmoo One

I really wasn’t feeling well after trying to breathe through a face diaper again. Oops.

I did have things on in the background. Right now, I’m listening to KRenner talk about finding gigs from an HR perspective.

It’s interesting, but I’m inclined to think that much of this is now OBE. Despite the robust economic latching on with a big company and advancing there is a thing of the past.

Really sour on most things HR after the past few weeks. I saw something on X about Lowe’s killing of its DEI programs. That was right on the heels of the news about FacH^H^HMeta doing the same.

A lot of that stuff is from HR staffs. Will they ever get the message? I

I’m not holding my breath.

There’s still a certitude about where the future is headed.

But they’re wrong. And it becomes quickly apparent that there’s just nothing there at all. Going on in may different places.

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Disjointed

I was distracted yesterday with the thoughts that wrought that memory.

Last two days of the year are workout days. My legs are sore.

Fantasy football resulted in two disasters yesterday. So, second place in my league, and seventh in the other Yahoo league.

Obviously, most of the pods are on holiday break, but there’s been a few things I’ve filled back in.

I need to get to the doc to get this weird finger thing I’ve got going on checked.

More later, maybe.

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Both Sides Are Bad

That’s a nicer than saying they’re both stupid.

After bailing on Trump’s interview with Sharyl Atkisson after hearing again, nothing worthwhile, I stumbled across Neil Cavuto interviewed Mark Cuban about his support for Kamala

They had a back-and-forth about Trump’s bad monetary policy…..without any mention of how really bad Biden/Harris have been.
Both candidate are relying upon just ungodly amounts of circulating money. Nobody ever expects that the spigot will ever close.

But it will. It has to. The maths don’t work otherwise.

Trump came out either yesterday or the day before with a proposal to limit credit card interest rates to 10%. Much like his pitches for no taxes on tips, and Social Security Income sounds good at initial listening, but they don’t fix anything.

Stop taxing tips? The deficit in Social Security gets worse; the “trust fund.” (That doesn’t exist because no politician has been willing to raise the retirement age even though life expectancy is now probably close to twenty years more than it was they bumped it the last time…) Social Security Retirement is out of money, and there’ll be mandatory cuts very soon, now. Taking off contributions on tips.

Meanwhile, nobody is willing to actually reduce spending, raise taxes, and raise interest rates.

No, NeoHips, the MILITARY INDUSTRIAL COMPLEX!!1! didn’t have a damned thing to do with every single TSA agent being a Federal employee.

But Kamala, and Alsobrooks are going to make sure grocers don’t soak consumers in pursuit of their 1% margins.

Nobody has a plan. That’s worse than it’s ever been.

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Starting Sunday

The NFL came back on Thursday night. Very good game, and my strategy for my primary fantasy team worked very well.

I actually, kind of by accident, ended up drafting bth Lamar Jackson and Patrick Mahomes.

The latter ended up getting traded for a couple of wide receivers who may provide good numbers for the year.

The Ravens-Chiefs game Thursday night was very good. I wrote last time about the situation with the game in Brazil.

I’d considered scribbling down the names of the companies that supported the debacle, but why? I don;’t care about either of the teams, and, probably most of the companies advertising aren’t things I’d typically buy, anyway.

Still, if you think what’s going on in Brazil is a good thing, or any of the stuff they’re doing, I really don’t want anything to do with you.

If you’re a politician who speaks out in favor of penalizing jailing murdering people who disagree with you, there is absolutely zero chance I’ll ever vote for you.

Sorry, Officer Harris.

Sorry WLAF Commissioner Walt.


So. What’s on tap for the week?

Probably a ton of work. No medical stuff, thankfully, though things start again in earnest next week.

ComXfinity has an AI app I can use. Unfortunately, I can’t figure out how to make it work for Fantasy Football.

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Lazing Saturday

Writing because I have a few minutes.

And refusing to work. I really feel like there’s things I ought to be doing.

Actually, no, I should be doing what I’m doing.

Looking at probably five straight twelve-hour days this week.

But I think I’m ready. TV viewing has kind of been offset by Olympics being on. I watch a bit, but it’s really not something I’m terribly interested in.

I could dive deeper into the mess that is politics, but that might be more disappointing than many other things.

Watching the sputtering economics happening. NYSE started deflating. What’s Trump’s solution? Stop taxing Social Security income. What’s Harris’s solution? Tell the world that Trump is worse than Hitler because he doesn’t want to raise taxes on corporations. (That don’t even pay taxes, anyway…..)

1-2-3 Plan. Set interest rates to 1% above inflation. 2. Halve discretionary spending. 3. Triple all tax rates and fees.

Not Voodoo Economics.

Anyone?

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Get It Over With

I’m planning out this summer’s travel. I always am tempted, and maybe this is a remanent of being very poor, but, I have to remind myself that I need to run the quick math on what I’m trying to do, how long it’s going to take me to save money, and how much I could save. If I would charge a hundred bucks for something that’ s going to take me four hours, it’s not worth it.

Just pay the extra and move on. Maybe I forego dessert a few nights. I probably should do that, anyway.

So, flight was booked last weekend. Casino hotel room booked. Let’s go.


Otherwise, with the NFL being off, I’m really catching up on a lot of entertainment.

On in the background. I did watch the Tom Brady roast. There were a few jokes that might have gone a bit too far….BUT…that’s how it’s supposed to work.

He did get in a 9/11 joke at Drew Bledsoe’s expense.

But it’s been more than twenty years. You call tell jokes about that now.

And, as is so often the case, I’m getting distracted.

Hm. I should email $person. Hm. Maybe if I got back on the schedule of writing over the summer again.

Nope. I’m not supposed to do it.

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Because It’s What I Do

I’m listening to a Soho Forum debate. One of the participants is one of the many I’ve kind of turned off.

It’s a good talk. I wonder if I was slightly biased against one side because of my distaste for one of the debaters.

I should just move my focus away from other things that bother me.

I’m really bad about doing that.