That’s not a good place to start the week, but that’s where I am.
My sense of dread for last week was sort of founded, but I did get through it.
The exercise goal was tough for a single day, mainly just because i forgot to do it in amidst the busy work obligations.
I did end up writing leet skriptz to do some things that are happening this week. We’ll see how well things work starting tomorrow.
So. What’s on tap for this week?
Well, I have a telehealth appointment early Monday morning, and a dental cleaning Wednesday after work.
Otherwise, it’s just a normal March week.
March often seems to me like the longest month. I can remember absolutely hating it when I was in school.
Thirty-one days. No holidays. Just an endless drone of school.
Since I’ve been older, it’s been better.
Obviously, there’s jubilation about St. Patrick’s Day. (Which I still maintain that if you’re going to go out, you should go to a Mexican joint…then go to the Irish joint on Cinco de Mayo….) Lent, too, which I really didn’t appreciate when I was younger. More below in the TOTW § below.
There is something about being in a routine to get your head straight. Maybe there’s no direct benefit, but these ritualized things that prepare you for whatever you’re doing.
I’m having flashbacks to Two-A-Days playing high school football.
Twice-daily practices in the hottest part of summer are awful.
You’re sore. You’re more exhausted than you’ve ever been.
But there’s something good that comes from all of it.
When you’re playing football, you’re in shape, and you know the playbook.
When you’re preparing for Easter, you’re setting your heart and mind for the teachings, and the things that faith informs.
But, with that, there’s things that I don’t know, and will never know.
And I can’t get to the place where I’ll ever get behind the concept that ritualistic preparation is the answer for salvation.
Things change. If I was coaching football, I wouldn’t have folks running Oklahoma Drills, but…
On to the TOTW, because my focus is kind of off.
Theme of the week thing…
Theme of the Week 87 – What are some things you do simply because that is the path that is set out for you? Are those things really adding value to your life?
I wrote during NoJoMo about How I Found Freedom In An Unfree World.
I seem to remember him talking about mundane things you do every day that don’t necessarily bring you happiness, but you do them anyway.
One of the things he wrote about was brushing your teeth. It doesn’t really bring you joy or distress, but it’s something you need to do to be somewhat healthy.
Is that really a path set out for you? I don’t know.
I know that while I was younger, there were things I did just because my parents thought they were the right things for me to do.
Some of them worked. Others didn’t.
Some of them brought me joy, others were just kind of going through the routine for the sake of going through the routine.
The problem I find myself in now, however, is that few things I do actually bring me any joy these days.
And that’s part of the reason I’m seeing a psychologist.
Will I ever enjoy the “value” doing these things might bring to my life?
I don’t know.
What I do know is that my failure to do them would result in more displeasure than whatever joy I might find from just choosing not to do them.
Okay. I did that. Now what?
Oddly, part of the podcast I’m listening to right now is talking about the Ark of the Covalent.
There’s just things that you do. Maybe there’s no benefits that are tangible right now.
Maybe it’s just a part of human nature.