I have a few minutes to hit this first-thing-in-the-morning today.
More recycling form 2015
It’s the final Tuesday of the month. Do you care?
Not really, no. All it means, really, is that next Tuesday will be the first day I haven’t written in a month.
Although there’s still a few days left, I think I’ve proven to myself that I can still keep a commitment to something sometimes tedious.
By the same token, though, the fourteen months I’ve spent in this horrible, very bad job indicate teh same thing.
I’ve endured a lot in my life. Some of it deserved. Some of it undeserved. But all of it flavors my values, who I am.
I can endure a lot; the question is why do I keep doing it? When will I get to do something that I really enjoy professionally again? I’ve considered a lot lately, mainly to get out of my current situation, but should I go do something else I really won’t enjoy, for very little money?
But one day of work left. I’m ready for a break.
I miscalculated that when I was putting together my prompts. The last Tuesday in the month is actually tomorrow, the 30th.
But, in keeping with the general tenor of the original entry, I think I’ll still feel like things are completed. Will I care that tomorrow is the last Tuesday? Not particularly. Will I care that it’s the last day in the pay period? A slight amount, I guess. I’m actually burning a little leave this pay period, so that’s a change from normal.
I was such a stick-in-the-mud when it came to a benefit I’d end up not being able to use very much. Thank you, The Science. (Why do I feel like Dave Smith’s pronouncements Saturday make him akin to the Dr. Fauci of the LP? Except Fauci’s been sucking at the public teet almost as long as Dave’s been breathing….)
But back to the prompt. Do I care that November is kind of over? A little. The weather is really outside my knowledge at this point given how rarely I go outside. I do sort of miss the days of when cold air would invade my lungs first thing as I step outside in the morning. (And, for several years, before warm tobacco smoke replaced it…)
though I’m physically closer to the point where I’d be able to enjoy that, it’s been taken from me for other reasons; thanks, The Science.
I could wax nostalgic about it, but I don’t really have that many good memories. I guess the closest would be some of the things in my youth in Europe. Or a couple of times freezing with my girlfriend (now wife) in DC.
Is there something that I can do? I don’t know.
One more day. Completion.