What are you most proud of this year? (Flashback to 2015)
In the 2015 entry, I wrote a lot about what was going on with the medical issues I was having.
It’s pretty incredible how different things are this year.
I think, maybe, I could really write to the improvements that started last year both physically, and especially mentally.
I thought I’d written about something very simple, going to the dentist for a cleaning, where I felt halfway like a “normal” person. I woke up, took a cab to the dentist, got my teeth cleaned, and came home. Like a somewhat regular person.
I didn’t have the sense of panic I’d had for years about being embarrassed publicly by something my body did. I wasn’t going to puke. I wasn’t going to pass out. I wasn’t going to shit my pants. I went, let the hygienist do what she needed to do, talked to the dentist, came home, then waited the requisite hour until I could have coffee.
This is not the sort of thing that many people can relate to, but it was my life for the past almost thirty years.
With that, I’d planned to travel later this year. As a test run, I went down to visit my mother. I rode the train to the Gulf Coast by myself. I flew back to DCA with a scared little dog.
Then I repeated the trip earlier this month.
Yes, that trip was largely flavored by my slide off the bench at the train station to start. (And, yes, I still have bruises, but the problems I was having down there have calmed down, at least.)
The trip for December was cancelled, which is probably okay. I didn’t go through the rigmarole to get my passport renewed.
But that’s okay. Settling in to Fitter Happier, maybe.
I’m ready to cut my hair. I’m ready to shave off the growth around my mouth. (Though I’m slightly curious about whether these few hairs are, in fact, gray, or if they’re just blonde…..I think I’ve mentioned before that if there’s a natural hair color, it grows out of my face…)
Professionally, again, it’s the sense of completion. When the thing I’m on finally ends, I’ll have a decision to make, but I really don’t think there’s a lot of point of trying to keep things the way they are, even if it’s going to cost people their jobs. The system I’m supporting has a purpose, and that isn’t to make me a lot of money. So wrap up tomorrow. And another year down.
And maybe we’ll get to some real winter weather. Just some freezing after the rain ends today.
And the US beat the Islamic Republic in the World Cup.
I wish I didn’t have more work to do tonight, but time to find dinner.