Self-hatred

My degree is in Governmental Administration.  I am a highly-trained bureaucrat.  There are few people who could hope to out-process me.  Still, there’s times when you need to apply common sense to a situation.

 

If someone passes out on the hottest day of the year, you don’t need to give him a whiz quiz.

 

Buh buh buht POLICY!!!1!  Yeah, fuck it.  It’s 105 degrees outside.  Use your goddamned brain for a minute.  Pumping someone full of saline so he can piss in a cup for you doesn’t make a damn bit of sense.  It can wait until Monday, when the person has had a chance to rehydrate.

 

/facepalm

Independence Day

Nice BBQ at mom’s with wife+inlaws.  Good food.  I’ve been horrible about keeping up with my writing lately.  It happens.  I’ve been writing stuff I actually get paid for.  What have I learned over the past three weeks?

 

IA people are bigger idiots than I ever imagined.

Record deficit

No, I’m not talking about some government.

 

Of motivation to write lately.  Function of having had to do lots of it at work, the place where I normally write being down for several days,

 

Went up to meet my mom’s new dog, had late lunch/early dinner.  Now some motivation recharge.  Maybe.

 

People are crying over the beggin’ station cutting shows that nobody wants to watch.  They’d put on something like Jersey Shore, but it’d probably be about Mennonites or Quakers peddling antiques from a quaint roadside stand in some Northern hellhole.  Waiting on that Ken Burns special detailing the history of Scrapple.

And today really is Tuesday

There’s an interesting meme going around with Rebecca Black, complete with hipster glasses, saying “I liked Friday when it was still Thursday.”

 

I wanted to write a lot this evening;  better than doing a load of laundry, but neither is happening.

 

Instead, watching true crime shit on the DVR and drinking Belgian beer.

 

(*taptaptap* Is anyone at all reading this?)

Feels like Tuesday

Going nuts trying to get little projects finished here, there, everywhere.  What’s suffered?  My writing.  That said, I feel more productive lately than I’ve been in a long time, in spite of being quite lazy this past weekend.

http://ms.about.com/od/livingwellwithms/a/suffering_ms.htm

 

I’m not sure who she is, but she describes things I have trouble articulating pretty well.  The odd thing about that description is that I haven’t felt well in so long, it’s difficult to classify exactly how I feel on a given day.  Some days are worse than others, certainly, but I think the last time I felt really normal would have been probably 1997.  Obviously, I’ve accomplished a lot since then, but…..

 

Enough with that.  As the title says, it feels like Tuesday.  I know it’s Wednesday, but the Monday holiday screws things up a bit.

 

Tracking back to Jesio’s IYRTP column on AltDaily…..

http://www.altdaily.com/blogs/news-blogs/opinion-blogs/if-you-read-the-paper-wed-june-1.html

My comment is at the bottom.  I think there’s reckoning going on in the “journalism” racket.  It starts with higher education, something they have been blissfully ignorant of for years.  Suppression of unpopular ideas on campus is nothing new;  it’s only a story when it starts happening to the people who are supposed to be the watchmen get the axe — the same people who’ve been hesitant to do the job they claim to do, all the while obscuring where they get their livelihoods.  Think “Green Week” on NBC when GE owned it.  So, what’s a consumer to do?  Get information from many different sources, accept that every single one is biased, and reach your own conclusions.

 

I drive people nuts when I say things like that, I know.  I’m biased, you’re biased, everyone has preferences and biases.  The work I do these requires objectivity — part of what I have to do is try to set aside my preconceived notions, and accept whatever the numbers tell me.  It ain’t easy sometimes to set aside those biases, and it’s important to put them out there at the start, but……

A realtor always thinks it’s a good time to buy a new home.

Your barber thinks you need a haircut.

Your dentist thinks you could use a full cleaning.

And so on…..

Is you feelin' that?

Or, seeing, rather, because I’m not seeing it all that well.
 
Went to the neurological eye doctor today.  The verdict?  Not good, but probably not getting worse, much as the neurologist who initially diagnosed my MS thought.
 
Because I’m doing so much in the way of analysis lately, I’ll break this down into pretty bullets that look good on a slide
Good:

  • My corrective lenses haven’t changed much since my last prescription last December
  • I can still drive
  • I know what’s wrong with me, so they can attack my body if it decides to attack my optic nerves again

Notsogood:

  • 20/60 in the right eye, corected
  • 20/200 in the left eye
  • No driving at night

Not  much more to say about it.  What will this affect?  Oh, not a ton.  I’ll be even more of a homebody after dark.  Big deal, right?  And I need to get more used to public transportation.  So, when’s the Tide start rolling, again, HRT?  When does the Amtrak station open near Harbor Park?

Is you feelin’ that?

Or, seeing, rather, because I’m not seeing it all that well.

 

Went to the neurological eye doctor today.  The verdict?  Not good, but probably not getting worse, much as the neurologist who initially diagnosed my MS thought.

 

Because I’m doing so much in the way of analysis lately, I’ll break this down into pretty bullets that look good on a slide

Good:

  • My corrective lenses haven’t changed much since my last prescription last December
  • I can still drive
  • I know what’s wrong with me, so they can attack my body if it decides to attack my optic nerves again

Notsogood:

  • 20/60 in the right eye, corected
  • 20/200 in the left eye
  • No driving at night

Not  much more to say about it.  What will this affect?  Oh, not a ton.  I’ll be even more of a homebody after dark.  Big deal, right?  And I need to get more used to public transportation.  So, when’s the Tide start rolling, again, HRT?  When does the Amtrak station open near Harbor Park?